Maybe I’m more fucked up than I thought..
I mean I’m receptive to the thought of having someone but allowing another person possibly hurt me to the point of no return isn’t an option. I look for things to go left so they won’t have to go right. . I’m scared.
What if you hurt me like the others ? They made me feel like I wasn’t good enough and I’m so certain you’ll eventually feel that way too, I’m damaged.
I’ve been trying to be more open with this whole feelings thing but it gets weird when I find myself getting too close to someone.. I’ve been disappointed, led astray , confused, misused and abused..I’m difficult.
I’ve been called that so many times from ppl who never had any intentions on trying to understand why.
I’m too deep. I like to explore what’s going on in other people’s heads so I can clarify and understand that the way they act/react are a product of their environment.
My environment was pain.
I’ve been better but from time to time I relapse into my past instead of accepting what’s in front of me.
I’ll never be perfect, I just hope you can see past my traumas.